I never knew that I could feel so absolute.
I’m not going to seductively suggest that I was once half of a whole. That I was incomplete without my ‘better half’. I was never incomplete, nor will I ever be.
But the whole person that I am now, is much nicer than the one I once was. And I think that just might be because of you my darling.
I feel compassion and empathy vibrating through my veins faster than the blood that races it. It’s strange that everything suddenly feels so stupidly simple. Simple because of you. The waterwheel slows down and my thoughts don’t run away with my mind as much anymore.
I’m really scared to let myself love you. How cliché was that line huh? Obviously I should just insert myself into any YA novel by John Green. As the main female protagonist, duh. But it’s my blog so let me be horrendously sappy for just a few seconds more to make my argument.
I say that I’m on the fence about the whole thing.
I know right? What a dick, staying so titalatingly undecided. But I know that I’m still ‘on the fence’ because I know, that once I come off it, I will never be able to climb up to the safety of any fence ever again.
With every new instance, you are destroying the posts that hold me up. Every look, every smile, every laugh, I know the fence breaks down just a little bit more. I can feel my obstinate willpower and addiction to self imposed suffering, fading.
So whatever you do my darling, don’t stop doing what you are obviously so annoyingly talented at doing, which is winning my heart, soul and mind in every way possible.